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I never knew being sick would work in my favor. [Guess who is rooming in a private cabin with the ladies?] I sleep with one eye open in case the crew decides to throw me overboard.

[He is trying so very hard to find the humor in...everything. He is also drinking any and all alcohol he can find. Shhh. It's fine.]

Daozhang Xingchen, if you can see this, please respond. Actually...

Anyone who stood in the way of the volcano, I want to talk with you.

Cheers. [He lifts a bottle.]

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You are welcome to ask.

My illness was self-inflicted. It lingers because of the damage I did.

Away from the crew, I've noticed.

Is it magical in nature, would you say? If it's related to whatever damage you have done.

As for the separate quarters, I suppose I'll have to find them - better to sleep separate than with too many eyes on my back, at this point. Don't you think?

Yes and no. Have you heard of spiritual meridians? They are the focal points martial artists use to gather and store energy. Each person has them and they are often connected to the vital systems.

I agree. If you are on the Pariah, I can keep you safe.

Thank you for the offer. I'm given a wide enough berth on account of being in the brig, but I think I'm getting tired of sleeping here. I'll find you on deck soon as my ridiculous sentence is over.

On the point of meridians, Wen Qing mentioned it somewhat in relation to cultivators. Are you one?

Let me know when and I'll meet you. Everyone deserves a safe place to sleep.

No, but I've been trained in arts similar to theirs.

Then it makes some amount of sense - go on.

I buried nails in my meridians, breaking the spiritual flow and damaging my vitals. I then removed them without precaution and with only alcohol to numb me. My senses, as a result, are quite dull and my life has been shortened exceptionally.

[Sweet Merlin and his balls.]

What could've driven you to do that?!

I wanted to die. That was also the punishment I set for anyone leaving my sect. If I didn't punish myself for leaving, how would that be fair?

As for expelling the nails, I wanted my strength for revenge. Someone close died - or so I thought - and I was too weak to fight those responsible with the nails in place.

I may not be an expert in the matter, or even familiar enough to share my opinion, but I think death is a disproportionate punishment for pretty much anything.

I hope you do not want to anymore - at least, I hope you have something worth living for.

You might be right. I was serving someone cruel and I fear some of his cruelty influenced my decisions. Then again, I must face that I am the one who created the torture.

I have made friends. I know they are in danger. I will live to protect them.

[Serving someone cruel sounds...familiar, even if she can't relate there. She knows about cruel masters, though.]

I know we've only known each other for a brief period of time, but you don't seem to me a cruel person at all. Take the outcome as an opportunity to make amends with yourself, and don't use that on anyone else.

[Yes, she does. Prince Jin wasn't that different from Voldemort - just less magic. Eventually Zishu has enough of him.]

I try not to be. I've learned from my mistakes. Through my cruelty, I lost so many brothers and even a sister-in-law. They should be alive and thriving. For them, I will use my days for good.

[Can't believe she's witnessing actual redemption paths someone's taking in this day and age. Would she be this gentle and supportive with an actual Death Eater? Hell no. Zishu is lucky she has only his words and her gut to go by here.]

Then you'll need to tend to your health to do that.

[Yeah he... There's no hiding he was a cold assassin. Yet he presumed each death was for something good (even if he knew in his gut it wasn't). He is making himself pay for those lives. She doesn't need to worry about him becoming too comfortable.]

I'm doing my best. If you know free healers, I could use their help.

What kind of medicine would you want? I have some potions, but limited resources at sea and I don't know how useful they would be. But I'm not really an expert myself.

Without recipes and thorough instructions, I'm basically making what I learned to make by heart.

What I need is spiritual power - something to replace what I am losing. I don't know if potions could help.

But thank you. I am honored you would try.

Of course. I would suggest then speaking to lady Wen Qing for starters. She's definitely wiser than me.

She did aid me before. I fear tiring her, but I won't have a choice soon.

I'm fairly sure that people who don't look after their health and make her job more difficult by being stubborn would bother her more.

You make a fair point. I will try to do better for her sake.

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