[Video; UN: heavenly four seasons]

[eternallywandering]

I never knew being sick would work in my favor. [Guess who is rooming in a private cabin with the ladies?] I sleep with one eye open in case the crew decides to throw me overboard.

[He is trying so very hard to find the humor in...everything. He is also drinking any and all alcohol he can find. Shhh. It's fine.]

Daozhang Xingchen, if you can see this, please respond. Actually...

Anyone who stood in the way of the volcano, I want to talk with you.

Cheers. [He lifts a bottle.]

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[thesuspense]

No world cares as much about deserving as you seem to. If you really want people to get what they deserve, you have to take it and give it.

[Turning his head to face him, he smiles, a glint of something in his eyes. Maybe mischief, maybe madness.]

I could help with the torture.

[With a laugh he shakes his head, gesturing dismissively.]

My daozhang being here... It's better than nothing, is it not?

[eternallywandering]

I am not a judge and jury. However if I can bring justice to some, those are special circumstances and I do not see myself as some hero.

[Like when he ripped out the nails and sought justice - and revenge - for Kexing.]

Mm why am I not surprised? [He crosses his arms over his chest.]

Your daozhang? I thought you must be fond of him. Do you treat him well?

[thesuspense]

Ah, what a question. Depends on time and interpretation.

Right now, yes.

[It being complicated would be an understatement, but he isn't really lying about anything.]

There is no way for us without pain, but isn't that just life?

[eternallywandering]

[His brows raise and he purses his lips, unamused.]

We can be better than Fate to each other. In fact, we should strive for better especially when it comes to Xiao Xingchen.

[He tuts and shakes his head.]

You sound like a menace.

[thesuspense]

That I am.

[And he clearly feels no shame about that or, indeed, anything else, just grinning and lifting his shoulders in a slight shrug.]

No one cares more about the daozhang than I do. Xiao-sanren. Xing-ge. And maybe you are right and I do strive for better these days.

[eternallywandering]

[Zishu focuses on him, a bit surprised and yet... He likes to believe most people can be redeemed. He won't jump to any conclusions about Xue Yang until he has proof.]

I'm glad to hear that. If you do care about him that much then you should know your worth to him. You should also know you can't be replaced.

[thesuspense]

Why would I think I could be replaced? There's no one like me. No one like me for him, either.

[Seems like overkill too, as he can barely handle one.]

Are you intent on seducing him, with how you talk? Good luck with that. You'll need patience.

[eternallywandering]

You're right. Each person is unique.

[If he had two Kexings? Heaven help him and everyone else.]

Seducing him? [Snorting, he shakes his head.] Xue Yang, I'm dying. I can put it off for a little while, but I'm not about to seduce anybody.

[thesuspense]

So? The dying it your most attractive quality.

[He pauses as he considers that, then shrugs.]

The daozhang probably wouldn't think so, you're right. Anyway, he's a lot of effort.

[He yawns, as if the effort has worn him out, then looks Zishu over.]

Do you like the pain?

[eternallywandering]

Is it? [He doesn't sound or look convinced.] For you to reach, you mean? I think he would open up to someone genuinely kind.

[Looking out over the water, he makes an amused sound.]

The physical pain is easier to bear. I would take more of it if it meant everyone I lost could come back.