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un: daozhang | audio
I have been thinking lately, perhaps too much, about forgiveness. Or, rather, resentment, especially with regards to these curses we've been gifted. I don't know what everyone else has to break, but mine involves jealousy and, thus, its own kind of resentment. I think most lingering cases such as these stem from unhappiness along a similar vein.
As a cultivator, it is my duty to cleanse such resentment from the dead so as not to affect the living in their wake. I am willing to help anyone else who may need it, though I fear I may not be as much help as others. I'm not sure I'm the best at forgiveness, either, even for myself...
[Xingchen's voice trails off, almost as if he forgets he's talking to anyone else, but he quickly recovers and clears his throat.]
I'm rambling. What I mean to say is I would like your cooperation if it's not too much to ask. As I said before my curse involves jealousy and words spoken in anger and dissatisfaction. I would like for as many of us to instead spread words of affirmation around the village. It might sound silly, and maybe it is, but I believe even something so small can make a difference. For example, last night I told one of the bartenders he had a pleasing voice. It doesn't have to be anything complicated, just kind.
Don't feel as if I'm forcing you, either. No one has to help if they don't want to.
As a cultivator, it is my duty to cleanse such resentment from the dead so as not to affect the living in their wake. I am willing to help anyone else who may need it, though I fear I may not be as much help as others. I'm not sure I'm the best at forgiveness, either, even for myself...
[Xingchen's voice trails off, almost as if he forgets he's talking to anyone else, but he quickly recovers and clears his throat.]
I'm rambling. What I mean to say is I would like your cooperation if it's not too much to ask. As I said before my curse involves jealousy and words spoken in anger and dissatisfaction. I would like for as many of us to instead spread words of affirmation around the village. It might sound silly, and maybe it is, but I believe even something so small can make a difference. For example, last night I told one of the bartenders he had a pleasing voice. It doesn't have to be anything complicated, just kind.
Don't feel as if I'm forcing you, either. No one has to help if they don't want to.
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[He is not sure. Fairness seems to be very different from kindness to him. Besides, who is the person that decides either?]
Can it ever be fair to be kind to me?
no subject
[It's more a rhetorical question. He knows Xue Yang doesn't have the same way of seeing the world.]
To treat everyone as equals, even if it might mean some have to face consequences. To keep everyone as safe as possible.
[The next question leaves Xingchen quiet. 'Fair' with regards to Xue Yang... He wants to say no, that Xue Yang gave up all his rights to be treated fairly. But, again, wouldn't that just make his words hypocritical? Treat everyone as equals. Shouldn't Xue Yang have had that same courtesy as a child?
Xingchen breathes out.]
I don't know.
[He's not sure about anything.]
I think...maybe.